latterman:

Paul Baribeau- Christmas Lights

fresh snow on the suburbs
staying at my parents
it hasn’t been a good year
but things are all right here

sleeping in the spare room
that used to be my bedroom
even though I’m home now
I feel completely homeless

I’m looking at the moon
shining on the snow
and everything was blue
except the Christmas lights

walking round the basement
where my band used to practice
sometimes I don’t want to make new friends
sometimes I just miss my old friends

but I’m seeing someone new now
she calms my heart down
but I’m too scared to tell her
how crazy I can get sometimes

I’m looking at the moon
shining on the snow
and everything was blue
except the Christmas lights

I never feel better after I cry
I spent 6 months of my life just wanting to die
I’m learning how to be alone without be lonely
learning how to be lonely without losing my mind